As If

Big wide world The boys - and girls - are back in town! Jamie, Sooz, Nicki, Alex, Sasha and Rob return for a fourth series of this groundbreaking drama. Welcome to 20 new episodes bursting with more teen angst, sexual revelations and burning issues than you can shake a bottle of tequila at. Our six young Londoners are moving on and moving out. College is over, and it's time to leave home and take those first steps into the big wide world. Trouble is, growing up in the 21st century is a complicated business. Friendship, love, threesomes, in-betweeners... it's not surprising those first steps are sometimes a bit shaky. So is the best plan really to move in with each other? And through all those mornings after the night before, will the gang ever lose their appetite for a party? As if...

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  E1Episode 1

  Mar 13, 2004

  Jamie discovers that he doesn't have the grades to get into university but he's too scared to tell everyone and fakes his leaving. Alex and Sooz move in together and throw a house-warming party, Rob faces eviction, while Nicki dates an attractive estate agent to get a flat for her and Sasha.

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  E2Episode 2

  Mar 20, 2004

  Nicki thinks she's got it made when she takes control of the flat finding situation and dates estate agent Christian. She's using him to find her and Sasha a flat, but thing is, he's using her too. Meanwhile Alex is happy about his new living situation.

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  E3Episode 3

  Mar 27, 2004

  Sasha's 'glamorous' new fashion job isn't quite what she expected and she finds herself working as an assistant to a mean window dresser. But she's determined to stick with it, even when she's told she must learn to drive. Meanwhile, Nicki looks for a travel companion and holds interviews.

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  E4Episode 4

  Apr 3, 2004

  After having unprotected and unexpected sex with one of her best friends, Nicki must rush around the streets of London so she can take get the morning after pill. But she only has twenty-four minutes, and potential fathers, friends and other issues keep getting in her way. Will she make it on time?

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  E5Episode 5

  Apr 10, 2004

  Alex does some assistant teaching at a private college, as part of his Uni course - but he doesn't realise the trouble it's going to cause him. It's there he meets cheeky student, Allen, who takes a shine. But there are student and teacher boundaries that Alex struggles to stick to when Allen kisses him.

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  E6Episode 6

  Apr 17, 2004

  Sooz thinks she has lost her creativity and finds herself unable to paint, which she blames on her change in character. With Sooz unable to be a talented artist like she used to be, she realises she needs to find the dark place she once had. Meanwhile Sasha's got creative problems of her own when Darna sets her on a major project, and Nicki meets Sooz's friend, Fran.

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  E7Episode 7

  Apr 24, 2004

  Sasha has a sleepless night, sensing that something is up, but she just isn't sure what. As she puts together the clues that she has, Sasha realises that Rob and Nicki have been messing around with each other. She's not happy that she could be betrayed like this, and there are going to be shockwaves.

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  E8Episode 8

  May 1, 2004

  Jamie has been lying to his parents for a while now and they still think he's at University in Inverness. But his luck is about to run out and his lies are about to catch up with him. Although for Jamie, his life is about to get a whole lot worse than he ever imagined and things goes disasterously and shockingly wrong.

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  E9Episode 9

  May 8, 2004

  Sooz and Jamie face more relationship turbulence in this episode, when Sooz starts doubting the spark has gone between the two of them. Jamie makes a friend called Katie who he's kept quiet from Sooz. Also, Sooz meets a guy who she's attracted to at art College called Tyler.

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  E10Episode 10

  May 15, 2004

  Rob finds himself stuck between his new girlfriend, Amber and his friends. And when he nearly ditches Nicki on her birthday for Amber, Nicki is furious. Rob and Amber both end up going to Nicki's birthday meal, but the couple have an unexpected annoucement that will shock everyone.

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  E11Episode 11

  May 22, 2004

  Nicki's trying to get over Rob and move on, so she gets herself two new jobs: one at a bar, and one in a bookshop. But it's at these two new jobs that she meets two new blokes; Toby and Max. However, both the guys know each other and play games with Nicki. For a change, she's not the one in control. But when Nicki gets involved with two guys, there's trouble...

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  E12Episode 12

  Jun 5, 2004

  Sooz and Tyler's friendship is getting stronger and he's giving her all sorts of ideas about how to manage her life and handle her money. However, the rents due and Tyler is hiding a little secret about his lifestyle. As Sooz deals with managing her life and finances she's about to get a few surprises.

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  E13Episode 13

  Jun 12, 2004

  For Jamie, life is about to get even more complicated and stressful. As his exam resits are only three weeks away, and none of his friends want to help him out. So Jamie takes desperate measures, and goes over the edge. Meanwhile, Sasha's in trouble when she discovers Darna's dirty little drug secret.

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  E14Episode 14

  Jun 19, 2004

  Alex joins a gay dining club to make new friends and meet a possible love interest, but to be part of the group he has to hold a dinner party, and decides to use Nicki and Sasha's house. Allen's got a crush on Rob, Sooz and Tyler are getting closer, and Alex finds a love interest a little closer to home.

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  E15Episode 15

  Jun 26, 2004

  Rob's got issues and doubts with marrying Amber, so he visits a counsellor to try and sort out his problems. He reveals the events of the night before; when the group, along with Katie, Allen and Tyler all stayed the night at Nicki's house, during a storm.

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  E16Episode 16

  Jul 3, 2004

  Sooz is consumed with guilt after making a terrible mistake and putting her relationship with Jamie at serious risk. Sooz feels so guilty, she does the unthinkable and breaks down. And in an emotional heart to heart with Rob, it all comes pouring out.

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  E17Episode 17

  Jul 10, 2004

  After being hurt by Nicki and Rob, Sasha decides on a new approach with her relationships. She plans to have meaningless one night stands, and then move on. Claiming she can't get hurt if things are quick and easy. But when Sasha begins mixing business with pleasure, that's when things get complicated.

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  E18Episode 18

  Jul 17, 2004

  Allen is looking for the one, and he thinks he may have found him; a cute guy he see's in the Root Bar. But Alex has other ideas. Meanwhile, Amber confronts Rob, and Jamie's about to get two huge shocks.

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  E19Episode 19

  Jul 24, 2004

  After successfully completing his exam results, Jamie discovers that he has been accepted into Inverness University, but he's not told Sooz yet. Is it really the end for one of TV's greatest couples. How will Sooz cope with having to face losing Jamie all over again? Will her secret be revealed?

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  E20Episode 20Finale

  Jul 31, 2004

  Nicki has had a late Birthday present from her mum. It's an around the world ticket for one. Will she go before she learns about Rob's true feelings? Will the friends have a happy ending, or is there a shock in store?

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  E1Episode 1

  Jul 23, 2002

  In a morning-after-the-night-before sequence, we see Sasha thinking about when she turned down Riggs' proposal, Jamie thinking about his conversation with Sooz after he'd slept with Nicki and Nicki feeling confused about her predicament with Jamie. Plus Sooz wide awake remembering Sasha telling her about Jamie and Nicki, and Rob waking up to find a girl in his bed, who catches him sneaking out. Only Alex and Mark are happy but this is threatened when Mark receives a phone cal from Rachel, his ex, who is distraught after losing her job.

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  E2Episode 2

  Jul 24, 2002

  Through the use of a split-screen format, we get to see the story from both Sooz and Jamie's point of view. Jamie and Sooz lie to each other that they are going on dates that night to make the other jealous.

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  E3Episode 3

  Jul 25, 2002

  Nicki's mum is concerned about her daughter's attitude to men and sex, and the fact that she doesn't seem to have ever had a proper relationship (just sex) so she tries to talk to her. Jamie decides to get a job, especially because he needs to buy Sooz a replacement Mini-Disc player which he broke whilst doing his own version of karate.

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  E4Episode 4

  Jul 30, 2002

  Alex decides to shop around for a new boyfriend and soon ends up checking out his old catch Dan. Mark is left in the dark, but when Jamie's new career leads him to the heart of the happy reunion, Alex is left to pay a hefty price.

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  E5Episode 5

  Jul 31, 2002

  When Rob's attempt at a friendly get-together turns into a squabbling session, Jamie and Sooz make a swift exit and have some old-fashioned fun together.

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  E6306 (Jamie's POV)

  Aug 1, 2002
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  E7Episode 7

  Aug 6, 2002

  Jamie is overjoyed to have finally found a captive audience for his jokes. Sooz's condition worries the gang. Nicki puts her tact to the test.

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  E8Episode 8

  Aug 7, 2002

  Sasha is the new scarlet woman now that Nicki has turned over a new leaf. Sooz tries make it on her, while Mark opts for a cosy twosome, leaving Alex to presume the worst of one of his friends.

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  E9Episode 9

  Aug 8, 2002

  Rob turns into the landlord from hell, until he meets someone worth dropping a lot more than the rent for. Nicki and Mark come clean about their recent liaisons.

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  E10Episode 10

  Aug 13, 2002

  Tensions build between Sasha and Mark as they continue to share Rob's flat. Sasha is pissed that she's not been invited to Sooz's welcome back from hospital do, so she resolves to confront the matter directly by talking to Sooz. Meanwhile Jamie and Alex have a go at becoming male strippers when they find out how well it pays.

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  E11Episode 11

  Aug 14, 2002

  Alex and Jamie have found out that stripping is a very profitable job. But things go very wrong when they "go to work" for the first time... they even get arrested. Also the gang organize a "party" for Sooz, only Sasha isn't invited but she's going to change that.

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  E12Episode 12

  Aug 15, 2002

  Jamie gets a job waiting tables at a 'Table Dancing' club. His boss asks him to go on a special errand. Unfortunately Jamie is distracted by one of the dancers and doesn't catch the address of the Italian restaurant where he is supposed to deliver his boss's parcel.

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  E13Episode 13

  Aug 20, 2002

  Everyone insists on Sooz getting some therapy, but all she does is bitch about the nosiness of her friends. She finally gives in and goes to a therapy group secretly, where she meets an interesting guy named Seb.

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  E14Episode 14

  Aug 21, 2002

  Nicki realizes that her relationship with Mark is the longest she's ever been in. That scares her a bit, specially when she finds out Alex is having a birthday party and didn't invite her.

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  E15Episode 15

  Aug 22, 2002

  Alex catches Mark with Grant again. He doesn't want to interfere with Nicki or Mark's lives. However, Nicki overhears the whole thing at Rob's flat. Mark disappears, leaving Rob a note to say, "Thank You".

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  E16Episode 16

  Aug 27, 2002

  Sasha is approached by a man in the pub, "Charlie Chapman", offering her a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. He promises he can make her become a presenter.

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  E17Episode 17

  Aug 28, 2002

  Sooz is in jeopardy. Just when she is falling in love with Seb - he's hospitalised.

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  E18Episode 18Finale

  Aug 29, 2002

  Jamie has problems sleeping. He has visits from a "guide" that show the future to be of Alex, Nicki, Rob, Sasha, Sooz and himself. In the dream, Sasha is a superstar called Space Bitch, Nicki has kids, Alex is selling financial services and Rob has a beard. However, Sooz is not to be seen.

Forget about Attatchments and This Life cos As If is back! Six young Londoners struggle with life's big issues. Love, friendship, careers and who's getting them in. Heads in the sky, pants on the floor - they may be getting older but are they any wiser? As If...

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  E1Episode 1

  Jan 6, 2002

  Nicki meets a handsome musical producer named Riggs and is pretty soon all over him at a party. He invites her and Sasha to a private party the next night, but Sasha has second thoughts about going when Nicki says Rob can't go.

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  E2Episode 2

  Jan 13, 2002

  Jamie is a bit freaked out after he has a dream about him and Sooz as a loving parent-couple in the future. Their affair is still a secret to all of their friends, which bothers Sooz, and they have a vague fight where she says he's not her boyfriend.

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  E3Episode 3

  Jan 20, 2002

  Riggs won't stop hitting on Sasha, and she's finding it harder and harder to avoid giving into temptation. She gets mad at every move he makes, but at the same time is confused about her relationship with Rob.

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  E4Episode 4

  Jan 27, 2002

  Alex chats with a guy on the internet and arranges to meet him. Sasha lends him keys to the flat for few hours while Rob's working and she's out. Jamie and Sooz have the same idea to use the flat while no one is around not knowing Alex will be there, they steal Rob's keys.

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  E5Episode 5

  Feb 3, 2002

  Sooz tells Jamie he's not satisfying her. He asks Rob for advice for a "mate of his" who has a problem with girlfriend. Sooz walks in on their conversation and asks if this "mate" had many satisfied customers in past.

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  E6Episode 6

  Feb 10, 2002

  Sooz has a conflict: she wants to tell everyone about her relationship with Jamie, but at the same time she's mad at him for lying about seeing Gabi. She stalks Gabi to see what she has that makes her so attractive to Jamie, but finds nothing except for habits of a woman older than hers.

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  E7Episode 7

  Feb 17, 2002

  Nicki discovers the truth behind her dad's court appearance and is less than impressed. She walks out telling him that he's on his own. Sasha is less than the friend she ought to be to Nicki when Nicki needs someone to talk to, prioritising her valuable studio time over friendship. Nicki is unhappy with having to work, and having to work in a dodgy designer-label-free shop!

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  E8Episode 8

  Feb 25, 2002

  Sasha didn't come home one night and Rob was really worried, then in the morning he had a go at her about it but couldn't be direct so he said he was cross because she'd left the bathroom in a mess.

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  E9Episode 9

  Mar 3, 2002

  Alex and Mark go out for a meal and start having "serious" conversations, talking about love etc. Alex realises that Mark is hiding something. He first confesses that he is bisexual then that he has a girlfriend. Alex has a strop and tries to leave and Mark tells him to stay put.

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  E10Episode 10

  Mar 10, 2002

  Rob throws Sasha out after hearing her and Riggs talking on her mix tape. Hurt, Sasha temporarily moves in with Riggs, but problems soon arise after she accidentally shrinks one of his favorite T's, and she sleeps at Nicki's for comfort.

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  E11Episode 11

  Mar 17, 2002

  Sooz bonds with her art teacher, someone who at first shares the same impressions of the world as her. But her teacher feels uneasy once Jamie shows up at the bar.

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  E12Episode 12

  Mar 24, 2002

  Jamie is trying to be more romantic with Sooz, but he never seems to guess what mood she is in. He goes to Sooz's and sets up a romantic dinner, with flower petals on her bad. While waiting for her, he starts to go through her discs for some music and ends up finding her taped therapy sessions.

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  E13Episode 13

  Mar 31, 2002

  Nicki is spending some quality time with her father, since he feels like he should make up for all the lost time while she was growing up. Nicki's posture of being a "daddy's girl" falls apart when her father walks in on her and the waiter from the restaurant of the night before in her room on the morning after.

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  E14Episode 14

  Apr 7, 2002

  Sasha invites Rob to her birthday party, and in an act of nervousness he asks her if he can bring his girlfriend with him. Problem is that he doesn't have one, so he convinces mysterious Saffron to be his date to the party, even after discovering that all her stories were lies.

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  E15Episode 15

  Apr 14, 2002

  Alex lies to Mark and meets Dan, while Nikki has a creepy experience with a too-much-pierced friend of Riggs.

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  E16Episode 16

  Apr 15, 2002

  Sasha's honeymoon with Riggs is over, she feels mistreated by him and his spoiled teenage daughter Portia only makes everything worse.

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  E17Episode 17

  Apr 21, 2002

  Rob meets an attractive woman at a party and Sasha begins to wonder if she did the right choice when she chose Riggs.

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  E18Episode 18

  Apr 28, 2002

  Jamie, Sooz, Nicki, Alex and Mark are out to dinner celebrating Jamie's birthday. Sooz is clearly not in a partying mood and after Jamie's speech in which he declares his love for her, she storms out of the restaurant.

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  E19Episode 19

  May 5, 2002
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  E20Episode 20Finale

  May 12, 2002

  At the bar, after overhearing Sooz make a nasty comment about her, Sasha follows her to the bathroom and tells her that Jamie slept with Nicki. She is devastated. Jamie later overhears Sooz telling Alex that although they had broken up and she has no claim to him, she is really upset by it. Jamie confronts Sooz but she is defensive, telling him that what he does doesn't concern her anymore. Jamie tells her that she does care, and she accuses him of being arrogant, but Nicki walks in on them talking and the conversation ends. Riggs proposes to Sasha.

So, you reckon you've got this whole life business sewn up. You're the right side of 18, you've got your mates, and your social life is bubbling along quite nicely. Well, you're in your prime, aren't you? AS IF!

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